Wai!!

So happy!!

Now that was different...

Anyway, reason: well, kinda simple if you know what's been happening to me the past few, uhm.. weeks, I guess.

Oh well, what else can make me squeal like a 12-year-old girl? Only one guy right now, and that's Harry Potter.

^_____^

I found a site that's absolutely wonderful: www.the-leaky-cauldron.org

I know, I know, it's been up for like forever and it's only now that I found it. So what? I've been busy with Harry Potter fanfics. Did I mention that I'm absolutely for the Harry/Hermione pairing?


Wai! And I just saw Daniel on TV!!

Alright, I'm getting pathetic.

What the heck do you care right? I can be as pathetic as a 12-year-old as I want, so there! :P

hehehe

I am so completely hopeless sometimes. It's not that weird, actually. I've always been like that, I think... though I've never been this rabid over any of the animé characters that I've liked over the years.


So anyway, I think I just made a bit of a fib. ^__~ I sent an email to my "sponsor" about my not being able to go for the interview, that they're quite busy. So I said I'll go next week, as they did say I have the fortnight.


Oh man, I just remembered that Harry Potter calendar that I saw last January I think. Man, it was so... ugh! I could have bought it but I didn't have enough money for it. Damn, and I just remembered that! I think I'll look for it again, and it doesn't matter that it's already April. It's not like I'll be actually using it to tell the days and months of the year... more of, I'll probably be staring at the pictures most of the time ^__^

Daniel Radcliffe is just sooo hot!!

The Phelps twins aren't so bad either. I hope the actor who'll play Bill Weasley will do justice to the character.


Anyway, to get away from the subject of Harry Potter...

But how can I when I sleep with the four books next to me in bed?

Argh! Change directions...


Oh my God...! Okay, so I'm not going to be changing topics for a while but only because I'm watching Daniel Radcliffe on TV right now!! YAY!! hehehe I stayed up late for this, so I might as well enjoy every minute of it. I forgot to ask my brother to set up the VCR to record the show but that's alright; I have new pictures of Harry/Daniel anyway so I can make up some more pictures!

Crud, I really am behaving in a rather not like my age kind of thing, ain't I? But that's alright as well.

I've actually been trying to give myself a diagnosis as a psychologist would, but as I'm not trained in that field, it can be a bit off, though as I'm the one doing it and I know myself as well as I possibly can... I might hit on things.

So... basically, I want my childhood back. That's all there is to it. I don't feel as if I've been through my teenage years as well as I should have. Considering how it went... well, let's just say it didn't go as well as it should. For example, imagine having your so-called friends turn on you just so they could suck up to your teachers. Cool ne?

Anyway, before I get too homicidal -- the shrink would probably say that it's better over-all for me to forgive and forget, and I don't deny that that's tons better, sometimes I don't want to forgive and forget coz I can't forget. Forgive maybe, heck, I can relate with them in a very civil manner and I could probably pretend to be "Oh my goodness, so nice to see you after all these years!" yeah, that kind.

I much prefer my high school friends than my grade school friends. Not to say that I don't have a best friend from grade school...

The heck happened that I was talking about seeing Daniel on TV to my grade school friends?!

Anyway... grade school best friend... we only actually went to the same school during 2nd and 3rd grades. She was a transferee and I remember some of our classmates and batchmates were trying to bait us into fighting. Considering that we were in different classes, it was kinda to spread rumors but difficult to have us face off, as it were. Then we became classmates in 3rd grade.

Damn but Daniel Radcliffe is so hot!! The accent!! The face!! Did I mention that he can grow up to be real heartthrob? And he wants to be a writer or a director in the future, not just an actor!

I think Daniel, Rupert, and Emma were all nervous in that TV spot I'm watching. Nervous, but excited and rather pleased as well.

Oh geez, now I gotta look for "The Tailor of Panama" to get a glimpse of Daniel; he plays the son of Geoffrey Rush in the movie.

Back to the ruminations... She left before 3rd grade was over to go to another country, but we write each other rather regularly. We used to snail mail a lot; I'd tell her what's happening with me, she'd fill me in on news with her... that sort of stuff. We email now, and she's coming for a visit in a month's time so...

I could stare at Daniel for a long, long, long time...

I don't think I've formed that much of a lasting connection with my other grade school classmates. I don't call them friends, coz they aren't.

High school's different, but I also gotta think, what if I'd gone to the other school? I also had a scholarship there. I'd probably have different priorities in life; the school was much farther away and necessated a dormitory. Wouldn't that have been fun? And that wasn't a sarcastic tone, it was more of... wistful.

If I had done that one thing different, everything probably'd be different. I'd be different. That's kinda scary but at the same time... damn, what if ne?

So happy thoughts...

Daniel Radcliffe, yup, definitely happy thought.

And I used to be fairly normal... *sigh*