Of all the roles that I hate to play, it has to be the role of the youngest sister to a particular sibling. All of my siblings are different, of course, and thus I have to modify my roles to each of them. Well, this particular one "demands" that I always be on this one's side.

Sheesh.

I have to be the one to be able to understand, tolerate, and all that shitty martyr-type qualities.

I don't like that. I'm not a martyr people!

And when I stray from that path, it's like everything's my fault! God damn it all to hell and back the frigid waters of Styx!

So okay, to keep the peace I still find myself being the martyr, just grin and take it.

Damn, I hate it.

Hmm... then I guess my previous statement could be false - I am a martyr.

Damn!

Argh!

Gotta kill myself!


So obviously I haven't killed myself yet, but maybe this flu/pneumonia virus would! ^__^ That'd be great!

hehehe I kinda find this blog thing fun, if not therapeutic; kinda like when I had to visit one of the school shrinks. But that was academic stuff; I couldn't really tell any of them anything - I'd probably end up in an institution. Then again, everyone goes through this stage, right?

Like wanting to get the hell out of one's skin? Mind you, peeling skin is painful. Been there, done that.


Darn, I can't kill myself yet; I just remembered. I have a lot of stories I want to write and am still writing, foremost of them being Illusion and some Harry Potter ones that're just up in my head for the moment. Of course hehehe I'm going for the Harry and Hermione pairing, so sorry to all those Ron and Hermione supporters (bii-dah!) me bad, but hey, that's how I want it.

Then of course, I absolutely have to have James and Lily, Arthur and Molly, and Remus and someone... don't know who. Maybe me? ^_____^ I just love that werewolf!

Been reading some fanfics about the Marauders and how they interact so maybe I could write one as well...? Sirius is almost always the one with the prank ideas with James, Remus is the quiet, reserved one, and Peter... well... he's Wormtail ^__^;; Kinda reminds me of Neville gone bad actually.

About the Harry and Hermione angle... I haven't actually read anything about Hermione being on a broom or how she is with it, except that bit in Book 1 wherein she flew to get that flying key. By the way, I found a key somewhat similar to those keys, somewhere among my brothers' things. Quite neat. I'm gonna wear it as a necklace one of these days, as soon as I find a good enough and matching chain or leather string for it. It depends. I think I could use the metal chain...

Anyway, about the Harry and Hermione angle... the broom and flying thing... I want to center the romance right about there. I could just see it, Harry letting Hermione use his Firebolt to learn to fly properly. I don't think she could practice during the summer break.

Then there's Bill Weasley, the, curse breaker I think is the term, for Gringotts. As J.K. Rowlings described him, he's cool. ^___^ Charlie's okay too but I don't know too much about dragons so... I could tackle Egypt better.


Anyway...

CSI rocks!


And get this, I'd managed to make a list of 10 things to do for a perfect murder, as compiled through the numerous mystery/suspense books I've read, not counting Clancy and Sanders and those military books that I've read as well. Gods, I'm evil.

Even when there supposedly any sort of a perfect murder because ultimately the perp almost always leaves something at the scene for the investigators to find. A bit of fabric, thread, anything that they almost always traces back to the perp. Kinda stupid. Especially the ones who just have to come back to the scene and gloat.

Then of course, they have to brag. Can't say I blame them; humans do have that tendency to be a social being. A real sociopath and psychopath would be a real find. No conscience whatsoever, just a clear path in his mind to the goal.

hehehe

Gotta get rid of all these negative energies stored up inside, if I wanna make a go of getting better. I'm still sick, but I'm "happy" to report that I could breathe properly last night so no problems there darn it.


On a happier note, my sister-in-law just called and invited me to an outing to the beach next week. Yay! Gonna be able to get out of the house! Thing is, it's with her side of the family - her parents, her siblings, their families. She has a brother, their youngest like me, who's my age and we haven't seen each other in a long time. I always thought we'd get along well, mainly because of our ages and both being the youngest in the family hehehe maybe we can even cook up some fun and mayhem! A partner in crime... could be... we'll see..


There are probably people from the Intelligence Community who're monitoring, or who have these ultra high tech software that they could just search for words that are way implicating... ^__^ They'll probably think one thing or another and I'll probably end up as an "enemy of the state" or something like that.

But I'm not.

I may not like some of the policies but I'm not one of their bad guys. For one thing, I'm a female ^__^ For another thing, I could hardly be bothered by stuff, why the heck should I add another headache to my own head?

I should stop before I bury myself further, and find myself in a Federal Prison.

Hmph.