Cooking Media Noche

As per usual, I am the cook for the holidays.

Christmas menu: Shanghai noodles with cabbage, pork, and peas. Fruit Cocktail Refrigerator Cake.

I was leaning towards a no-bake Pumpkin pie, but I couldn't find the main ingredient here in the province *sweatdrop*

New Year's menu: Lettuce, cucumber, carrot salad. Asian steamed Fish Fillet with Vegetable Sticks. Angelhair pasta with tomatoes and sausages. Crema de Fruta.

Does it look weird?

I still have a few more hours before I cook. Good thing I finished the crema de fruta earlier, and the other stuff can go really fast, so it's a "serve immediately" kind of thing.

oh my ears... it feels clogged... pressure thing... argh...

oh my nose and lungs... they'll feel bad with all the firecrackers going off later...

Holiday laziness

Who isn't lazy during the holidays? I, for one, admit to being lazy and that all of my good intentions of actually doing something productive flew out the window as soon as the date changed to the 24th of December, and it will probably stay that way until 02 January.

Why am I still wired this way anyway? I'm not a student anymore, so why should I be bothered with normal holiday routines more recognizable as something a full-time student should have?

I'm still sleepy. Way too early.

Job hunting

You gotta love technology. I've been applying all over the place, and I haven't even left the house. Well, except today since I had to go out anyway and get my temporary certificate of completion. E-mailing is such a convenient addition to everyday life, don't you think? I just copy-paste the cover letter, attach my resume, and send it off. Now all I gotta do is wait for the responses, and there had better be responses. If there aren't until Friday, I'll probably do the job hunting the old fashioned way and walk all over the place.

*sigh*

There is this one company that I want to work in. I just hope they have the opening that I'm qualified for.

Happy news: Christmas Party at Ems is this Friday!

Missing stuff

Yup, it's official. I have lost 2 (two) items: a manga and Fluffy's bday party token. Both loss majorly sucks, but especially the manga since it's not available anymore. Damn those kids! And man, was I mad when I found out. I shouted and yelled and brought out my belt coz I was very, very close to walloping their hides. How dare they take something from me?! I had to attend my class's Christmas Party so I left and forgot about it for a while, but when I came back, I was ready for a fight from the adults, since I shouted at the kids. Jeez, if they can't bloody acknowledge that their kids are effing delinquents... what the hell is the world coming to?

I still want restitution. I prefer blood.

Onto happier news:

Trilogy's Christmas Party went okay, as far as I was concerned. I don't care for the snide remarks at the end of it though, especially coming from someone who didn't attend and who was bitching about the party coz she was (I think) inconvenienced coming after the party for a bit of business talk with us care of her former classmate.

Heck, she can arrange the next gathering. I gladly hand her the reins.

Another Party.

Hmm... My week is enclosed by parties -- Monday and Friday. Lovely. And for the first time, I don't think I'll be going to the province for Christmas. I'm thinking of staying here in Manila for the holidays. Is that weird?

I mean, I don't have anything special planned, but it's just easier for me to stay here so I can apply for employment already. Besides, I have this nagging feeling that I am not welcome to stay for long over there. Hell, where am I welcome?

Clearance

Yay! I'll be hunting up 2 more people for my clearance -- the registrar and the school admin. The registrar wasn't in today coz of a nasty toothache, I'm told.

I totally flunked pharma in my Basic Exam, like totally flunked. I got 82% for the medical lecture and 97% in the laboratory. As it is, I'm one of the highest scorers, according to my mentor, which is a very good thing.

Now, all I have to do is finalize my resume, print, and apply.

*sigh*

Bye-bye monthly allowance.

*sob*

Basic is OVER!!

Oh yeah, time to dance that silly dance of victory, now that the dreaded Basic Exam, i.e., Final Exam, is over. Read them and weep: O-V-E-R. I just finished with it, and I went straight to the mall to get something to eat, coz man, I was starving at the middle of the exam. Good thing my mentor had a bag of chips, and she knew how to share hehehe

The food that I decided on having though, wasn't that good. I went to Wendy's here in Festival Mall, and the chicken wasn't crispy nor was it hot, not even warm! At least the spaghetti was plentiful and hot, so at least I didn't feel like I was cheated out of my money.

I'm still thinking of doing something to reward myself on a job well done, if I do say so myself. I found the exam to be fairly easy, though I did get confused between nystagmus and strabismus. *sigh* And let's not mention pharmacology, since I know I totally bombed that one.

I'm thinking of watching a movie, either The Myth or Just Like Heaven, I think, although that has to be tomorrow's consideration. I want to go away for the weekend, and I'm still thinking if I want to go to the province or to my other brother's place. Both have their pros and cons; I just have to tally them.

Oh yeah, there's this other exam that I want to take, maybe next week, the Top Level Exam, sort of similar to the CMT exam, erh certification exam, though I can't take the real CMT until I get at least 2 years working experience in the field. It's still up in the air whether I'll take the TLE next week, but I want to. I have to check the schedule first though.

-o-o-o-

On a sadder note, I just found out that my favorite English professor in college died April this year, lung cancer. I called the school coz I wanted to touch base with him, so imagine my surprise when the department receptionist/secretary told me he died last April.

Until the next time we meet in the hereafter, Doc P! Watch out for me, wilyah? You've always been cool.

My baby's back!

*cue evil laughter*

oh yeah, i've got my baby back! after 3 long weeks of being without his company, i got him back *dances around*

and is it a surprise that i'll be mucho sleep-deprived tomorrow, erh, today? today of all days which i have earmarked as a day of study interspersed with lots of rest?

as bon jovi sang one time, "i'll sleep when i'm dead"

Basic Exam

Actually, that's the fancy schmancy title of our finals, which is this Friday. Yay! I'm really supposed to be studying for that darned thing, but I can't seem to find the energy to do so. For one thing, I just moved back to Alabang and the room I'm in still smells like paint! I got a few suggestions to remove the smell -- vinegar, candle, charcoal -- and I am so using those 3... if I get the energy to move. I slept downstairs last night, coz I really can't stand it.

Secondly, I'm just plain lazy to study a few days in advanced of the date itself. I mean, who but the most conscientous student does that anyway? And I am not and have not been that kind of student since... well, never. I like to cram. I think I got to like it a bit more than usual in college.

Thirdly... there isn't a third reason.

Tentative schedule for me: whole of December is for job-hunting. Yay! And I'm thinking I could get away with taking the TLE (top level exam) a week after the Basic exam, if I get the high enough marks that I'm aiming for.

Hopefully, by January I'll be gainfully employed. Cross your fingers everyone.

Scooby Doo vs Cloud

I got me the cd of Advent Children, which I am curious to see as most of my friends have seen it, and they really like the movie. Then again, I am not a gamer by any stretch of the imagination. Just last night, I borrowed my nephew's Gameboy, and I thought I'd give the old games I used to play a go. Man, that was a bust. It could be that the console was smaller than the ones I'm used to. It could be that I'm rusty in those games. It was fun, but not as much fun as it could have been.

I also got the cd of the second Scooby Doo movie, which I haven't seen yet, surprise surprise. The first movie I saw on cable, which reminds me I have got to get the cd of that too, just to complete the series, of a sort.

I am thinking about getting a collection of the Batman movies -- primarily coz I really like Val Kilmer as Batman/Bruce Wayne -- and The Crow movies as well. As far as I know, the latter has 4 out already, with the 5th movie starring Edward something as the main character.

movies

it's not the flu, but something close to a head cold

Yay I'm sick!

hehehe

I've been feeling poorly (gah, such an old-fashioned word) since Friday. I currently can't speak loudly coz it irritates my throat. I've been sniffing and sniffling back PSD, and presently expectorating phlegm. Normal stuff, I guess.

Oh my sandals...!

I cannot believe that old woman! Old being relative but she was definitely older than me but not the grandma old type. There I was sitting innocently in the waiting for it to stop so I can disembark when she ups and stands on my foot! Ouch. And in the process, ruined my sandals when she stepped on top of my foot therefore my sandals and removing a bead from the design, as well as removing the stitching on one of the other flower designs on it.

Argh.

At least her big foot didn't ruin my pedicure hehehe but that's not the point! She ruined my sandals!

I kept thinking of ways to possibly get back at that stranger (I know it's not very productive, but hey, venting is good, nah?)

An' it harm none.

The Legend of Zorro

...and it could easily have been Four Brothers, let me tell you. It was a toss up between the two movies which one I'll see today, but I went with Zorro since I have no idea when the cinema will stop showing it. I hope Four Brothers will still be on next week, as that's when I'm planning on watching it.

Hmm...

Which brings me to a conondrum. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire is going to be shown on the 16th. I've already made up my mind that I'm not going to class that day so I could catch it, first showing, if possible, and then I'll stay for three showings. Maybe. I want to stare at Daniel Radcliffe hehehe

Ah well...

So, Legend of Zorro.

I didn't understand half the dialogue coz they (read: Zorro and that kid of Zorro, Joaquin dela Vega and others) sometimes mumble and I couldn't hear the words. I did understand in the end, but heck, I want to listen in on the dialogue sometimes and not just watch for the fighting and the explosives.

Btw, isn't nitroglycerin supposed to be volatile? How come that vial didn't explode when Armand was handling it? Or when anyone was handling it, come to think of it. The train scene, though, was nice hehehe

So Alejandro and Elena got into an adventure together but separately, and there was this priest, either a Dominican or a Franciscan, who was quite funny. And also his bald spot. Really big bald spot on top of his head. The government guys, rather typical -- blackmail and do whatever necessary to protect the whole, never mind the little people who will get trampled on in the process, who Zorro protects.

The kid was cute, Joaquin dela Vega. I read the boy who played the role didn't speak a word of English before, but the director liked him so they cast him. And he had his own moves. Hah! the way he slapped that priest/teacher of his around in the classroom was nice. And that priest/teacher was in all probability a Jesuit.

So, anyway, I could have had an early day today, but I have to meet with a college friend late in the afternoon; she's giving me my invitation to her church wedding, which incidentally coincides with feifu's birthday hehehe Ack, have to buy a dress or a new top. Good thing there's such a thing as a sale these days. I'm thinking, budget outfit, which I know I can pull.

Yabang!

of insect bites and make up exams

Hah!

So I finally got to take my make up exam this afternoon. I would have taken it yesterday but there was a power outage so classes got cancelled. Funny thing though, after when classes were cancelled, I went to the mall, but they also had the power outage. Anyway, I'm rambling from the story. So, there I was, walking around, minding my own business as I was waiting for my brother to pick me up so I could tag along with him on his errands, and this guy accosted me and started talking about would I just try for their promo and I could win big big prizes (channelling Shampoo, scary). I already said no, but he was insistent, so why the heck not, right?

Yeah. Why the heck not indeed.

I won. The first prize, they said, a 19-piece cookware set from Germany. Only catch is I have to buy something from their promotional items so I could claim my prize. No biggie? The cheapest among their items costs about 30K.

Hah.

So we went for the cancellation, but I get to have a souvenir of sorts. So I picked, only I picked the card with a ballpen and a chance to win another prize. Guess what I picked. The home entertainment system with a foot massager. Only... yup, you guessed it, I have to buy something from their promotional items to claim my prizes. Yeah, those.

Hah!

Though if I had my own credit card, I probably would have gone for it. I dunno, guess I always wanted to do something like that even if it felt like a scam of some sort.

Then today, after I took my make up exam, I went with 2 of my classmates to a talk/orientation, for setting up your own business, so she said, and the speaker was a local congressman. So sure, okay... but once my classmate told me to keep an open mind, I was all kinds of wary.

Was I walking into some sort of "Praise the Lord!" kinda thing with the pushy angel wannabes?

Was I going to have to fork over some money for something?

Ah well, what the hell, right? I always wanted to play the sucker for something.

We listened, we chatted, my headache got worse, but it was over. I honestly went for the free snacks, which turned out to be just a club sandwich and a tetrapack juice. *sigh*

But I went, and would you believe it, it was in sales. Hah! I can't do sales even if my life depended on it. Honestly. But I signed up for some reason. Heck, I haven't even encountered their products before this!

Which reminds me, I have to check out their website.

Ah well, I hope I can do something with this, as the prospect of extra income is always welcome.

Long vacation or short sem break

Hah!

I just saw the notice on the board in class, and we have an 8-day break! Yay! Which begs the question, what do I do during that time. If anyone says study, I am going to break your arm, for what is the function of a vacation other than for a break from whatever it is that you are doing during the days before the break and what you're going to go back to doing after the break.

Hmm...

Dungeons and Dragons 2

Yup, saw the movie. As a matter of fact, I just got out of the theatre, and since I can't go home just yet as I think there are still people working at the house, I thought I'd stop by Netopia and blog. And yes, waste more time when I could very well use the time for sleeping as I have only got 3 hours sleep last night. It was bloody fun though, what I was doing.

...

Get your mind out of the gutter!

...

I claim first dibs on it.

*sigh*

Anyway, the movie. I honestly didn't know any of the actors, but I thought they did okay. At least it was better than the first D&D movie. The effects then were atrocious. This time around, they got better. I liked the ice dragon. Don't rightly know what happened to the 3 other characters -- did they die? Well, that priest one with the lines on his forehead, he got frozen by an ice dragon then he went kersplat and I saw a leg; they buried that. But what happened to the elf-sorceress and that thief? They were shown at the end so...

Argh.

I don't even know the whole lore of D&D. I just saw it was a more interesting film than the other ones that was being shown, so I went.

Anyway... what else about the movie... there were a few explosions, so it was fun. Drama, kinda made me wince. Bloodshed, which made me laugh, especially when that Leech monster thing killed the head mage's servant hehehe *splat!* under the bed. That was funny. And also when this Leech monster thing told the big bad with the black orb Daraman or something, that he go kill Berek himself -- Hah! Hilarious! Just coz he thought he had Leech under his command...! And he didn't! What did that monster say... something like, "The look on your face...! That made this entire endeavor worthwhile." before he changed and flew off. hehehe funny.

I have a make up exam to take next week, so I have the weekend to study. I'm thinking of going to my other brother's house for the weekend though, especially if there continues to be work done in the house. I do hope they finish soon. It's darned inconvenient, with the dust and the noise, and did I mention that they demolished the bathroom so we had to construct a crude covering so I could bathe?

*ahem*

la-la-la-la-la

blogging Adam

First off, Adam is a character from my new-old original story -- new coz I only just started writing it again, and old coz it's been in my files for a couple of years now. Anyway, I was hit with a sudden urge to write last night, never mind that I was getting sleepy, so off I went and wrote a few things down, Believe and a bit for my Illusion September challenge, which is majorly late already by the way. I wanted to keep going but my eye-hand coordination was getting sloppy, so before I hurt my beloved laptop and myself in the process, I decided enough was enough, powered down and went to sleep.

Funnily enough, I was writing a blog entry for Believe, and it reminded me that I haven't made an entry in permutations in a bit.

So here I am.

By the way, I'm supposed to be reading for the review classes tomorrow ^__^ even though our lecturer told me I could skip the class if I wanted to. Which I don't, coz what'll I do then? Mall? Uhm, kinda boring already. Then again, I am planning on staying out late for, at least, this week, since people will be busy with the house. I don't know when they'll stop being busy though, so I'm kinda seeing a lot of movies in my near future *sweatdrop* Goodbye savings for a new battery... if I ever got around to saving anything...

...

What else is there for me to say?

Well, there's already anothe batch at school -- batch #5. I've met with their class president, and I thought he was a bit full of himself. Then again, he is older, a heck of a lot older than me anyway.

Nothing going with the lovelife (what lovelife?!)

Writing-wise, I'm getting there. It seems that I have to read a lot to get my creative process started though. Not that I'm complaining, I like reading! The written word is a lot more attractive to me than visual. Even though visual is a lot more in-your-face and immediate. The written word, though, it makes you use your mind, to imagine what those words would look like.

Work-wise, I have no idea what happened with Centrals. I was supposed to take a test a couple od weeks ago, prior to working there, but they postponed. Their words, not mine. And then this other mentor at school told me that she was sorry that my work for Centrals didn't push through.

Oh yeah, that one item ticked me off. The appointment, i.e., the test, was postponed. I haven't heard anything from them still, by the way. Postponed. Meaning there would be some delay, but there would be another meeting set up until further notice. Right? Not cancelled, meaning there wouldn't be another meeting set up. Right?

That just plain ticked me off. I mean, does she have an inside track in the Centrals that even the head faculty doesn't? And the head faculty was the one who told me it was cancelled since the Dean called her and all.

Which brings me to another point -- why didn't the Dean call me and tell me? Why go through the head faculty?

Damn politics. I hate that. It gets in the way of most relationships. Can't we just all get along without worrying that someone is trying to one-up someone else or you, that someone isn't taking advantage, or worrying about how to take advantage of someone else's good fortune. Gah, it's way tiring to always worry about those things when you could be enjoying your time!

*sigh*

Presence of people = politicking

One of the old philosopers have said that man is not an island (was it Aristotle or Plato?), that man needs man to survive... guess that's where the whole concept of politics came about eh? That there should me some kind of rules set up for interactions and what not. And as it evolved, it became, tadah! politics.

*cough*

Getting away from that thought...

sinfully sexy

*sigh*

I can't find the movie. I went to all the shops that I saw had vcds, and none of them had Chocolat. Heck, someone even asked if I was looking for the Chocolate Factory. Morons. So both films star Johnny Depp, but that's all they share in common.

*sigh*

No Chocolat, sadly. And Johnny Depp was so...

Anyway, so I cut class on Tuesday and Wednesday, missed the last exam on Tuesday, finished the transcription, and I'm going back to my first files to redo them and hopefully get a higher mark. I know we were told to make notes of our files so that when we go back, we could improve on them markedly, but I was lazy and I didn't. Hopefully, I can still improve on them.

Gah, that just plain wasn't how I do things. I hate taking notes, especially when it's not a lecture. Come to think of it, I get lazy during lectures too. That's why there's this handy dandy thing called tape recorder.

And now for the news

Nothing much really... Went to the interview/appointment at Centrals, talked to the Dean about some stuff -- isn't it so obvious that I'm withholding a lot of information? But then again, I really don't want to jinx this -- came back, collapsed in bed because of the presence of those frigging stairs and my knee still hasn't recovered by-the-by, and just about fell asleep, only I couldn't coz I was tired.

Then, the next day... well, today... dang it, I was supposed to do the laundry.

I'm supposed to be studying for the Oncology exam, but I am so not in the mood. Can't really force myself to do something that I know I am not in the mood for, coz that's just a plain stupid thing to do which I know will backfire on me, making me crabby and grumpy.

Don't want that right now.

Though I am kinda getting tired of being so darned amiable all the time. I feel like I'm hiding, much like Batman is hiding behind his mask. Only, I don't have a city to protect, vengeance to incur, and all the drama that Batsy has on his mind.

I did buy 2 new bags though. It was on sale, so... hey, what's a girl to do? I like bags. I like shoes, too. I just can't stand pink, rather, a certain shade of pink, as I am using pink in my website. I have this pair of shoes in mind, but I just don't have the time (or the resources) to go after them. Anyway, I do have a new pair of boots that really needs to be broken in. I can't walk too comfortably in them still. Have to use them a lot more often.

Alas, still haven't finished my cd of Pirates. Haven't even started on Sleepy Hollow yet. Ah well, Johnny Depp...

bye bye weekend lie-in

hehehe I know I really shouldn't go on about this, but I can't help myself. My mindset for the weekend has already been set -- that I would get a chance to relax and just forget for a bit -- but that's all shattered now.

Wow. Shattered. Real destructive word.

Hmm... postponed, maybe.

Ah well.

So...

I haven't started on my September fic, and I am getting antsy about it. Everytime I try to get into that particular character's head, I just keep getting bounced off and around in a merry-go-round. Sheesh, who knew she could be so uncooperative, and just when I was giving her a chance to have a go at it, a chance to speak her piece.

Then again, it could be that I have an exam on Oncology on Tuesday that's bothering the creative process.

argh, and more argh

i think the title says it all. I've been questioning my decision to invite him to the group that I formed, mainly for a rather select group. So alright, he could may be a part of that group, but does he have to sound so... argh! Condescending, maybe?

We're the majority. Shouldn't he, like, make the adjustments and not us?

That is just so effing annoying!

And it's early, though I think I could may be late going to school because I'm still online right now, and I don't care.

I'm annoyed and I want to be annoyed for a bit more time so that by the time I get to school, my temper will just be on simmer, and I won't snap at my older classmates. Who said wearing masks was easy? Off with THEIR heads, whoever they are.

*grumble*

I hate that attitude, but of course, I can't vent in the group coz that's like, impolite to do so, especially in their company. Hah, I'm ignoring his email and the not-so subtle hint that I change the way I communicate with majority of the group just for him. That's not me, and that's not going to happen.

and then there was... me

Dramatic ba?

hehehe

La lang, just glad that I got to use my internet card again, after a weekend of hell trying to use the darned thing.

Thing is, I had this really weird dream, and it involved alien invasion. So, I was with a group of friends at a local highschool, and we spot this really big satellite dish that's powering up. After a long string of physics (for some reason, in the dream I said, "Just tell Karen all the physics stuff then she can tell us in more understandable words."), we got that it was prepping for the alien's entrance into the planet by destroying everything, I guess for a clean slate for them. So we got to work on some kind of shield that would bend the laser beam and send it off to space instead. We did, and it worked. That was some moment. And then it rained, rather, hailed, meteor showered, whatever. Lots and lots and lots of hot stones came pouring down. Since the shield was built against the laser beam, that was useless with stones, so we ducked for cover. It hurt getting hit with those stones, I tell you. After that, there came this rumbling sound, and off into the horizon, I spotted walking pyramids.

Yes people, walking pyramids.

I think I miss Stargate SG-1.

So these pyramids just waltz on by, stepping on a lot of buildings, and consequently, people, and leaving a lot of dead in their wake. It was at this point that I woke up.

so good...

...to be online again. After a harrowing couple of nights when I couldn't get online (the pox on my former provider, though to be cancelled as needed), I finally changed providers and lo and behold! I am online yet again.

hehehe

...to be breathing. C'mon, think about it. Getting strangled to death is not a pretty way to go. And it hurts like hell, from what the facial expressions of such victims convey. Isn't a quick and painless way to go the ideal way to go?

*morbidity*

...to be with someone. Not that I am with someone currently. Or since, for that matter. It kinda got to me, when I went out today, that I'm seeing a lot of couples. I know there's a lot of them out there, but I guess I'm just realizing that I am seeing couples out there now. They're not just something... not there before. I don't know.

*depressing*

...to have something to do. And no, sleeping cannot count as something to do. Poor me, as that is just the one thing that I would love to do for all eternity. Sleep. Sleep the sleep of a thousand ages, and rejoice in the visions.

*perking up somewhat*

...to just let go, and not worry about anything else. That sort of freedom, I would welcome. As it is, I have to maintain a semblance of control most of the time, and it's wearing on me.

*pensive*

...to be me. Nope. Not yet. Getting there though.

Testing the waters

hehehe

Was bored with the other template, and as I was already online, I might as well change it, ne?

So. News about me.

Have a test on Tuesday.

What else is new?

@__@;;

Hmm... let's see...

HALE poster autographed by lead singer Champ. Check. *swoon*

Happy day. Check.

Try to study. Check.

Sleep. Check.

Toxic exam. Check.

Eat to decompress. Check. Still hungry though. Have to start a sensible diet program for myself. I so don't want to loose the new pants and shirt.

Prepare for new lesson. Half-check. Already read through the module once before. I'm hoping for the stock knowledge syndrome to kick in. Which I really doubt at the same time.

Afternoon nap. Check.

Weird dream. Check. Hmm, must be the "inipit" cake with the seafood dumplings affecting my brain, but they were delicious all the same. Kinda makes me wonder why I dreamed of Mac-and-Cheese though. And the mistrust and betrayal theme interspered with the giving spirit. And some of the people in my dream were in costume (cosplay!).

Study. Half-check. Though I am kinda getting pressured to study, which is just plain wrong, since the drive to study should come from me and not from any outside source. Really shouldn't let them get to me, aye?

Time online. Check. Even just for a while. Have to check emails. ^__^

I feel like I've just woken up from a semi-deep sleep.

It's like, I'm aware of what I've been doing but at the same time, I'm viewing it through a lens and am not really there, in my life, living my life.

Weird?

Yeah, guess it is.

Maybe I just need more sleep? Or maybe I just woke up.

Maybe I just need to think more on what I'm going to do with the rest of my life... Okay, so maybe the rest of my life is just too long a time to contemplate, so we'll scale that down to the next five years. Give or take a few years if I don't follow through with that killing myself off thing in the next five or so years.

Anyway, I think that was just the fear of getting old and useless kicking in when I made that promise to myself. Who wants to be old and useless? I'd rather be dead than litter the already littered world with my useless hide.

Now, if people could just make themselves useful, this wouldn't be such a bad place to be in.

It's way early in the morning and I have a somewhat toxic exam coming up on Tuesday that I have to study for. Don't know what my classmates were thinking, scheduling the exams this way in this instance. So we have 4 subjects left over from the previous exam of Module 10, and they wanted to do that on Tuesday as well with the scheduled exam of the whole Module 11? Geez, did warn them though. Asked them if they wouldn't be too burdened by that, but did they see my point? Of course not! So being the kind and mature class prez that I am, we held a vote and majority won, which meant we will be having the exams on Tuesday.

I know I can handle this, I don't know if they can. I mean, I have my relatively recent college years to fall back on, and I know I can do this coz I've done it before, having a really toxic day wherein all your professors want them to be your one and only priority and thus schedule all their requirements to be turned in that day and exams to be taken that day as well. So maybe in college all I had to deal with were social and philosophical issues, and I'm dealing with medical ones this time around. It's the principle of the thing though.

I can do this and I will do this.

Especially since I so bombed the previous exam. Geez, below the passing 75%! Seven out of ten? SIX out of ten? That's gotta be my lowest so far... Oh yeah, I have a three out of five, which is worse. Thank the gods I don't have anything below those scores.

Midterms results are back! Flunked Surgical Procedures (6/10), but I perfected Anatomy and Physiology, Laboratory Medicine, Pharmacology, and Professional Issues.

hehehe

My reward to myself: SLEEP.

Yay. Midterms over. It was surprisingly not as difficult as I thought it would be. As long as you studied and prepared for it, that is. I don't consider myself that well-prepared for the exam mainly because I didn't feel like I studied enough; I chose sleep over studying most of the time that I was supposed to be studying.

hehehe

Wonder why I'm so sleepy? Aside from the fact that I'm always up for a good nap any time of day, of course.

Well, when I went to NBS and I saw this stack of books in the discount corner, I went straight there and dug through. I wasn't exactly looking for something specific, just wanted to browse through. Then I saw it. The book. Oh my.

hehehe

CSI: Miami

As soon as I took hold of it, I didn't let go. I went looking for any more CSI: Miami books but alas, there were only of the CSI: Crim Scene Investigation variety. Not that I have anything against the Las Vegas team, but I much prefer Horatio and his team over them. Personality quirk.

It was a fun read, and I had to finish it in one sitting, otherwise, I would have been miserable and not paying attention to class. At least, that's how I felt that time. In hindsight, maybe I shouldn't have stayed up the whole night -- really no sleep -- then when to class sleepy as hell; I fell asleep during the lecture!

But it was worth it though ^__^ Horatio was so worth it.

Oh yeah, funny incident on my way to the school for midterms. I was running late coz my hand was starting to act up again and I couldn't move as fast as I would have wanted. So there I was sitting in the transport when this particular classmate (THAT girl) got in the same vehicle. I don't think she saw me but I definitely did. I didn't look at her, and I must've shook my head and muttered something about fate being funny coz the lady across me looked at me funny; I just smiled at her. Anyway, so we got off at the same stop -- duh! -- and I went on ahead like I didn't know she was behind me. We met up at the elevator, so I greeted her and smiled and made small talk. I was extra glad though that the school had already opened so I wouldn't have had to deal with her and the other batch, at the same time. So, I went to the washroom, she went on to the lab, and all went well.

Doesn't mean I'll forget though.

Onto happier news...

What happier news again?

Oh yeah, I think I'm going to post the June fic today.

^__^

*sigh*

Windows update downloading. Guess I have to wait for that finish... which gives me some time to surf. Yay!

I am so babaw right now. That's the sleep deprivation talking, I think. And I don't think I'll be sleeping any time this week coz I just realized that midterms is this Friday, like tomorrow since it's already Thursday.

Gods, I wish it was all just stock knowledge and not some super specialized type of exam, especially in Pharmacology. That bites.

hehehe

Nah, any suggestions for a name I can christen the laptop? Definitely not Russell though *sweatdrop* Already had that discussion with Rushkins.

*sigh*

At least THAT'S over and done with. I did what I said I would, and that's to apologize to the class for disrupting their laboratory session. As for the girl and the guy, I don't know and I don't care. I try not to acknowledge the girl right now coz I still haven't completely come to terms to how complicit she can be. I think she's trying to intimidate me with the imminent visit of her sister the other day, which never happened by the way, and she looked so sweet and innocent with her white button down shirt and glasses, but I just didn't acknowledge her even when she took the seat next to me at the round table at the lobby of the school.

Petty and juvenile I know, but I want to be. If only for now since I never got to be petty and juvenile before. That I can remember, anyway.

So some more good news for me.

I got my laptop!

Yay!

Now all I need are my files at home and I can get Illusion and Countdown rolling again, as well as the other stories pending.

And note, that this recent experience will find it's way into Illusion. That I can promise with certianty since I already have a nice scene plotted out. Gods, what would I give to have James here with me right now, if only for moral support. Not to mention the intimidation factor.

hehehe

Ah well.

Someone said that she sees me with a foreigner. Whatcha think?

Next time I try to do anything, like interfere even when I'm asked to, especially by someone I don't bloody know that well, hit me over the head and knock me unconscious. Please.

Gah.

Just when I thought I could finally post something nice and good, this effing thing happens.

Okay, good news first.

That quiz bee thing that I competed in? We placed 4th place. I know, not usually a good thing, but considering that our competitors were all finished with their academic (medical) lessons and we're still on module 9 out of 15, that's gotta be a good thing.

Heck, we even tied with one of the other branches! That bloody neurology question did us in though.

Anyway, onto the bad news?

Side note: I am still exhausted, people.

So there I was, minding my own business, and one of my batchmates tells us that someone from the other batch was texting her and she got kinda creeped out with the content. Something like, after a few texts, this guy told her that they were "on" already; that he's ready to dump his girlfriend for her. And she said something about him feeling like he was the only guy worth knowing on the whole planet. Or something like that.

And she was curious as to how he got her number.

That's gotta be questionable, right? She said she was creeped out and this stranger guy -- who happens to be in the batch after us, who happens to be the only guy there -- was texting her like this. So the general consensus was that someone had to talk to the guy and try to discover how he got her number. Since I was the president, that fell on to me.

Gods, I wish I never did go to class and instead just slept the day away.

I admit to the mistake that I should have waited for the guy to finish the class to talk to him. I admit to that. And I'll apologize to him and the class for that.

I won't apologize for trying to help out though.

Although, I will not help her or her friend out anymore. I want to add "anymore than I have to" but I don't want to qualify that statement. As far as I'm concerned, they can rot in hell and won't bat an eyelash.

God, I can be a major bitch, can't I?

Me bored.

Me bored.

Me bored.

Me bored.

Me bored.

...

We had an exam earlier, and I know I bombed one part, totally.

Me bored.

Me bored.

Me bored.

Me bored.

Me bored.

To rant or not to rant, that is the question.

And the answer to that would be... preferably to rant but I'm not in the proper frame of mind for that. Truth be told, I'm just feeling plain lazy today.

*sigh*

My studies are so gonna suffer for this phase.

Hmm, I always have these slump phases... Can't rightly recall when in highschool I got them but I was a lot more laidback then, I'd like to believe. I still am laidback, aren't I? Gods, I hope so. Don't wanna be overly stressed and end up with ulcer and a host of other stress related diseases. So not majorly cool.

I do have a heart condition that I really should be looking out for, but I only do that when I remember and when I care to.

Hmm, I do have this arthritis and gout thing... Hand hurts when I move it wrong but what the hell. What's a bit of pain, right?

Johnny Depp!

He's filming Pirates 2 & 3!!

Yay!

There's this play that I want to see but I have no information about it, when it's going to be, where it's going to be held, how much the tickets are...

*sigh*

The good thing about University was that if you knew the director (or any of the staff and major casts, I suppose), you could always request for a free ticket ^__^;;

It's the current Romeo & Juliet play that I want to see, mainly coz a former professor of mine is directing it (I think) and I so want to see it...

Managalog tayo ngayon.

Isa lang ang nais kong ipahiwatig sa lahat: Masama ang loob ko.

*naks*

Masama ang loob ko sa isang manunulat.

*lalim na ba?*

Hindi ko na muna babasahin ang aklat nya, sa kadahilanang maari ko itong masira at maitapon lamang dahil sa sama ng loob ko sa kanya. Sayang naman ang pinambili ko. Ikakain ko na lang. Maari rin namang gamitin ko na lamang iyon sa ibang bagay din naman.

*crack*

Aw crap

That's it.

That is so it!

Hah!

This is my second time today to go online. I kinda felt rushed the first time around. Anyway...

Darn it, I know I was supposed to write about something...

Oh yeah, I ran into someone I knew back in college here in the mall hehehe Funny thing was we both knew each other's faces as familiar but not the name.

So, that done.

Recently was given news that there would be a quiz bee and I would be one of the contestants *sweatdrop* At the very least, I hope it's not going to happen so soon! Geez, I have to read and understand and get familiarized with all the topics...

Heh, something to do.

Hectic: that's how I feel this week has been.

Gah, there's a kid named James behind me playing an online game with his friends hehehe

Anyway, so we had a "free day" so to speak. End result for me is that I haven't done any advanced reading as I have been wont to do before. I got lazy ^_______^ I guess I'll just have to play catch up this weekend. There goes my sleep... Ah well..

So...

Damn it, I had this whole thing thought out and ready to be written, last night! But since this is now and that was then, I kinda forgot. If I had written that down though, it wouldn't be the same. It'll feel like I'm reporting something that should have "felt" while writing.

Don't you hate that when it happens?

Gah, another exam on Tuesday.

I got the worst test result so far on 5th exam. As in "bagsak" in two subjects ^__^;; geez!

I am so not obsessing, mind you, merely stating.

What else is there?

Sheesh! Lotsa rain yesterday. Good thing it came down after I got home.

Anyway, what was I going to write again...? Hmm, something about...

Nah, never mind.

It'll come back to me when it does.

Hmm... I haven't really blogged about the most "interesting" thing that happened to me recently. *sigh* I'm not supposed to go online everyday coz I have to watch my budget *sweatdrop* And I just realized that I get too constricted and I can't bloody well move if I'm too concerned about the state of my wallet.

Anyway, so there's this classmate of mine, much older than me, female... I don't know how to term this but the last couple of weeks, she was super cold towards me. Like, I'm in her immediate line of sight but she'll address her question to the one behind me instead. Things like that.

I don't like that. And I so don't like feeling like she's always making these implied comparisons with our classmates that "oh you're so quiet but you're so good and fast; you're not competitive at all." Three guesses who she's comparing them to.

Yup, me. Coz she's told me in a number of occasions that I'm so competitive.

Well, duh, I'm competing against myself...!

Anyway, just earlier in class... I don't know why she addressed me but she did and she was all friendly like. @__@;; Trojan horse kinda friendship thing?

No idea.

Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince is out! I want one!

This is actually yesterday's (or the day before even) news but since I'm not supposed to be going online everyday... *sigh*

Anyway, I was all by my lonesome in NBS, browsing, and waiting for the rain to let up, when my cell phone sounded a text message. It was a strange number so, of course, I asked who it was. The person said he was my classmate (a guy) and he was asking me who I was with. So, thinking it was my classmate, I replied honestly, that I was with so and so but was alone then. The reply that I got read something like, "Sorry, I'm not that person. I just used his name so I could check who he's with there." He, referring to my classmate.

I'm like, "Huh?" And I was also kinda mad. Since when did I become their bodyguard? Geez!

I thought it could have been the wife checking up on the husband, my classmate, as he/she used my other classmate's name. Sort of as a verification, I think now in hindsight, so I won't be too suspicious or anything.

Honestly!

I think it's bloody rude and uncouth to pretend to be someone else and deceiving other people.

Okay, really bad and graceless moment just happened to me. Outside the mall -- parking area entrance to the mall -- and I stepped down from the curb, right into a depression for the drain. I turned and yes, you can guess what happened *sweatdrop* Good thing my ankle's not broken when I turned and I just almost collapsed, sprained it a bit. I can put my weight on it, so it's okay, no major infraction. It just hurt like hell before but now it's more of a throbbing hurt.

Gah, and I was with my classmates -- 3 guys and 1 girl -- so at least I wasn't alone hehehe

Anyway, it's a curious thing. Usually when it's the first few days of school -- grade school, summer classes, high school, college -- I get nervous and everything. But now, it's more like I'm detached from it all. No nerves, no jitters, just... there.

We'll be having our first exam on Tuesday hehehe We got it changed from every Fridays to every Mondays coz my classmates said they'd be better prepared for the exam if they have the weekend to study. Hah!

But let's just keep that amongst ourselves, ne?

Hah! First day of school yesterday and I got elected Class Representative *sigh* If only they know... hehehe right, Feifu?

It went alright, as far as first days of classes go. There was the requisite orientation in the morning then we started classes that afternoon. Lecture class in an airconditioned classroom and it was after lunch, so kinda sleepy nappy time. Actually today was more the sleepy nappy time ^__^;;

As usual, made friends, hung out, took notes... usual stuff. I still want that notebook! Actually, I don't think I'll buy a notebook anymore since we'll be having weekly exams, on the dot!

Gah...

Seika, what news you?

Saint, how's it going?

Oh yeah, Sunday was Carlos' birthday so I greeted him through text. That darned git said he just landed from Australia -- hope he brought back some souvenirs he could give me other than the standard koala keychain as I have enough of those already -- and that he'll treat us next week. By us, I think he means the old block.

Gah, do I even belong there anymore?

I hope he carries through with that "promise." And he's said before that he'll introduce his girlfriend to me. Which never happened as I was staying in the province. Hah! But now that I'm staying in Manila again...

hehehe

*cue evil laugh*

wai!! I'm really going back to school! Hah! Even though my idea of a school tends to have the connotation of years in studying... Ah well, let's ditch that bit of snobbery off to the side of the road.

So... The thing I'm doing is actually related to the medical field -- NO! I am not going to be a caregiver! Sheesh, I'm the laziest person I know and you want me to take care of someone else? No thank you. -- though a bit more cushier and doesn't involve a lot of standing and walking around.

hehehe


So anyway, Feifu, I kinda figured your Mom nixed the idea when you didn't text me that afternoon so I arranged to spend the next day with a friend, Ching. I accompanied her to get her documents authenticated at the Malacañang so she can be ready to leave whenever.

hehehe That was fun, as I'd never been there and coming from where I was staying was also a new route for me. But when I saw the familiar streets the bus was travelling, I was like, hah, I know this. It was the trip to the authentication office that I didn't know but that's when I employed the cuteness of Saint and asked the nice police officers for direction.

Hmm, there was a couple of cops that gave me the creeps though, and one of them was huge, like fat, like he shouldn't be on duty because he's too big. Wasn't there a program or something that would check the local police officers for that? I think they're slipping...


Oh yeah, which reminds me, I have a question for the general public: Do you feel that you literally owe your parents for your education? Like do you keep a ledger of sorts that you list all your expenses then make plans to pay your parents back for every cent?

That was one of the conversation topics I had with Ching one time. It was a curious view on life, I think. I mean, how far back do you count? All the way back to when you first breathed on your own and your mother had to stay in the hospital? Are you responsible for that bill too?

Okay, so that might be a bit absurd, but really, do you literally owe your parents your education, financially speaking?


So...

I'll be staying in Manila for the better part of the year. *sigh* I already miss cable TV. And my bed, lumpy as it may be but it's mine and I can move around. Not to mention proper lighting. My eyes are gonna hate me if I don't rectify the situation.

But tell me, how are you gonna go about rectifying a situation with two little boys afoot? And one of them has already laid claim to the bed I'm sleeping in at their house and he's whining about why can't he have one since I have one. At least the younger kid's a bit sweeter in disposition.

Tantrums *sigh*

So, so sleepy...

Went through a couple more school sites, just to check out the thing I wanted to try out. One was a complete bust; I cringed when I realized what I was looking at. The other looked promising, but I still want to compare it with the other one.

Not making much sense, am I? I never do, especially in this mood and usually when I don't want to and that's very much just everyday.

Load of laundry to do but not today, mate. I just want to sleep.

I'm giving myself a headache thinking about things. I don't usually think about these things. I just react, but circumstances are starting to prod me into acting. I just think that I need further research on the matter at hand. I don't want to enter a situation half-assed and then ultimately make an idiot out of myself. Not that I need help in that, since I can do that pretty much by myself already.

Suddenly quite awake. I hate this song at this moment... much better now that it's changed to the next one. I've always liked Gackt's voice, though familiarity with L'arc en Ciel song lyrics is always a big plus.

Where was I?

Hmm, musing about something that I don't want to put in here literally since that would just bloody well invite jinxing it to high heaven.

Heck, maybe I am afraid -- terrified -- of growing up.

I am slowly but surely killing off millions of my brain cells at the moment.

hehehe

I saw this program at the Discovery Channel about sleep deprivation. Technically, what I'm doing can't be classified as sleep deprivation since I manage to sleep during the day when and if I'm awake at night, like now. I was asleep for the better part of the day earlier after I finished my laundry and I'm wide awake now, minus a yawn or two.

So does that mean that I'm reincarnating brain cells? Or does the whole process cancel everything out and I'm not loosing brain cells?

Coz I have a feeling I'm going to be needing those brain cells in the near future. Ack, can you believe that I am actually contemplating going back to school?

Well, alright, so it's all part of the plan to get my life back on track as I don't have a wannabe-ana following me around (hopefully, crossing fingers, and please don't jinx me!) and making my life hers and miserable for me.

Anyway, that's one of the plans, going back to school. The other plan is to finally surf through my jobstreet account, if I do still have one, and pick Moe to apply to. Or just apply to all of them. hehehe Makes me wonder if that flight attendant thing is still open ^__^

Big Plans, Big Jinx, coming on the way...

I am such a pessimist!

Nah, feifu, so sorry about not responding to your text immediately. As I texted you, I was asleep then. I didn't even wake up when my cellphone sounded even when it was just in arm's reach of me. Again, sorry, and I hope one of the twins got that thing sorted out.

wehehehe this quiz thing is fun...

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Your Birthdate: April 25

Your birth on the 25th day of the month (7 energy) modifies your life path by giving you some special interest in technical, scientific, or other complex and often hard to understand subjects. You may become something of a perfectionist and a stickler for details. Your thinking is logical and intuitive, rational and responsible. Your feelings may run deep, but you are not very likely to let them show. This birthday makes you a more private person, more introspective and perhaps more inflexible. In friendships you are very cautious and reserved. You are probably inventive, and given to unique approaches and solutions.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyourbirthdatemeanquiz/">What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

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The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/">What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

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Your Japanese Name Is...

Kaoru Yamashina

What's" your Japanese Name?

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What Your Dreams Mean...

Your dreams seem to show that you're a bit disturbed... but nothing serious. You may have a problem you're trying to work out in your sleep. Overall, you are very content in your life. You tend to be a very productive thinker. You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind. You secretly want to hide your dreams from your waking mind.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoyourdreamsmeanquiz/">What Do Your Dreams Mean?

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You Are 70% Normal (Really Normal)

Otherwise known as the normal amount of normal You're like most people most of the time But you've got those quirks that make you endearing You're unique, yes... but not frighteningly so!

How'>http://www.blogthings.com/hownormalareyouquiz/">How Normal Are You?

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You Are 23 Years Old

23 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatagequiz/">What Age Do You Act?

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I think that's just about it. I still have to figure out this Hello thing... Gah, where's the bloody button?!

hello 

Withdrawal

I am suffering from Stargate SG-1 withdrawal symptoms... I'm so depressed... I haven't watched the bleeding show for almost a week! No thanks to that nogoodnik channel! How dare they change the schedule?!

Hmph.

I really, really like this picture ^__^ 

Hah! Off kilter!

I just posted the rewrite of my March challenge fic at the illusion ML, and just because it was finished just the same, I added in the edit of my Irish Cream fic to include the explanation for why James was such a bastard.

That's all, I think.

Though I do think that one of our cats -- had just recently given birth, yesterday to one kitten that I have no idea if it's alive or not, and today to another kitten that I have no idea if it's still alive or not -- is delusional. Coz the main mother cat has had two new kittens and she keeps taking them up to the room. I think she believes them to be her babies when in reality, she has ignored her own babies.

Is that normal cat behaviour?

Really good thing about this getting sick this time around, is that I didn't have a fever. Which is good, since there was a time when I started speaking Spanish when I had a 39 to 40 degree C fever. Heck, at least I knew what I was saying so that's something.

*sigh*

I opened Illusion Chapter 16, tried to write a bit but David and Miko are being difficult and both are *still* hiding from me. I almost have the chapter done -- just a few tweaking as per usual -- and those two decided to just disappear. Gah, if David wasn't David, I'd probably punish him. But he's David...

It is so official -- I'm sick, and I'm blaming that darned new hospital I went to with some people. What is it about hospitals that make me sick? Hmm, let's see... sick people loitering around? Germs and bacteria and viruses that can't be scrubbed out hanging about in the furnitures, especially in doctors' offices?

I so hate being sick. It's like, I'm hanging suspended over my corporeal body and just looking in on things. Gah, lethargy. Not to mention I can't taste anything! And even I did want to go to sleep, I can't coz it's so bleeding hot that not even two fans can take care of the heat for me.

There is some ice cream in the freezer though. Too bad it's Rocky Road since someone evil finished off my Cookies and Cream... so not getting into that.

I'm sick, I'm sick, I'm really, really sick!

Gah...

Hey ho! It's my birthday! Yay! And it's Egypt Week on Discovery Channel! Yay!

Anyway, this has to be fast coz someone, "has to use the computer, go on the Net, very important." Gah. It's supposed to be my day and it's turned out to be more about her than me. F***ing bitch. But enough about her and how she destroyed my happy mood. Wish she'd just stay away today of all days. Then my day would have been perfect.

As per usual, there was cake and ice cream. Hmm, I sense some Rushkin in me today. No guests, another usual occurence. Gods, I haven't had a birthday party since I turned... 12, I think.

Hmm, I guess there were a few guests, my brothers, my nephews... hehehe I suppose I could have invited some other people from the neighborhood but I didn't. I don't really feel like socializing with them today of all days. They're just not... today-is-my-birthday people, I guess.

So, thanks to all who greeted me! hehehe When I get off my lazy ass and find something to do, I promise I'll treat you, ne? Just don't hold your breath.

I won't be able to go online today, I'm afraid. Sorry.

*sigh*

Ironing. What a chore.

But then again, I seem to find the darned thing... calming. It could have something to do with having a veritable weapon in your hand -- that thing is hot and can burn! -- and it could be the monotonous actions of going over a piece of fabric in the same motion.

The one thing I don't agree with it is the sweating, as I never seem to recognize the fact that I'm sweating until after I've ironed everything. Weird.

I really should have done this yesterday but I got side-tracked with my drawings. Cleaned them up nice and all, and then I had to go back to the originals and tweak with them a bit. So now I have to re-scan them. And clean them up again. Then maybe I can get to the coloring part. I dunno about the shading and highlighting part; I'm still iffy on that aspect, but I'm working on it.

Anyway, chatted a bit with someone for all intents and purposed I thought had forgotten me. hehehe Seems he hadn't. Hello Sunny! Ah well, he was doing something else so I let him be. I did have something else to do as well at the same time.

Crikey.

Hey, I can go out tomorrow... erh, later today... bears thinking about it anyway.

Dangnabit! It's bleeding sore!

Erh, my right pinky finger, that is, coz I've just spent the past three or so hours cleaning up the drawing I just scanned. *sigh* I knew I shouldn't have scanned that James/Anna pic just yet, coz when I looked at it, I saw some more improvements I could make tomorrow... erh, later today.

Anyway, this is what happens when one is being OC and anal about cleaning up the damned image. But it was nice ^__^

*sweatdrop*

I thought I lost the whole thing... hehehe So I guess this means that the flickr thing stays at A.C.I.D.E.R. It's not that bad, I guess, but since I was considering putting in an album (sort of) there in my gallery... Ah well, time to scrap that plan and move on to Plan B.

Now if only I had one at the moment...

Anyway, updated A.C.I.D.E.R. so there are actually links to the collages and wallpapers that I've made in the Picture Gallery. And the poetry section is also up.

Life-wise... nah, how come I don't feel my age?

Maybe it's just the fact that my birthday is coming up in a few days... I don' t know... According to some, I should be freaking out coz I'm nearing the big 3-0 in a few years but I don't feel that. Most times when people ask my age, I have to do some mental math to figure out my age myself. Is that weird or not?

Is it also weird that I don't want to be here, at home, on the big day? I want to go away. I actually have an idea of where I want to go but I don't know if I'm going to be welcome there. Anyway, worse comes to worse, I can always go up North for the weekend hehehe Makes me wish I'd stayed in touch with Ricky and see if he's home and willing and able to stand my company. But I haven't and I have no idea where he is, so there.

I finished (sort of) the James and Anna pic that I've been working on. At least I think it's as finished as I can make it in pencil. I have no desire to ink it, however. I'll just scan it and play with the colors in photoshop.

And I've also finished a sketch of a young girl that I saw in my magazine. All in one sitting! I am so proud of myself. Heck, the kid was cute in her ad photo so I thought I'd draw her. No evil hair strands though.

Gah, those things are evil! Hair strands! Do I really have to draw them? Well, yeah coz they give definition to the hair, but I can get majorly OC and anal about them so I have to relax and not obsess about them too much.

I hope.

It's past midnight and what am I doing? Nothing sinister, I assure you... though a bit tiresome. I'm uploading some files for my site A.C.I.D.E.R. and it's quite a few of them. Gah, makes me wonder why I didn't just shuffle the files around from the old folders... Oh yeah, coz I just had to edit them for this new *hopefully* improved version of the site.

Aside from that... listening to music... gotta love that...

A.C.I.D.E.R. is up and running...!

As up and running as I could make it anyway... it's still a bit rough but I just "made" it this, erh, yesterday afternoon. I dunno, I guess I kinda had to update it in a way since I wanted to post some new wallpapers/collages that I made.

So there's going to much room for improvement in the current A.C.I.D.E.R.

Here's to hoping that I can make it as I want it to be!

Gah, I woke up still tired. Then when I was just starting to get on the groove of things, i.e. waking up properly, my brother 'offered' to load The Sims -- reason why I had no sleep the other day, we went with my other brother to Makati so we passed by Filinvest to get the game -- and I dunno, I felt like it was being taken from me... control that is...

Like, I haven't got a choice on when to load or not load my game... can I breathe now? Or would you like to do it for me? Can I have my death now or would you like to do that for me as well?

Oh yeah, bought a new knife, all-purpose knife and it's sharp. A bit on the heavy side but manageable. Crikey, it feels good to use it when preparing food.

Where was I...? Oh yeah, so I got ticked off. Heck, even if I said no, he went ahead and did it anyway. Welcome to my life... so I spent today, erh, yesterday, in front of the computer exploring the games folder. Another reason that contributed to my bad mood, I tried playing Sims but there was no audio -- someon turned down the speakers' volume, blighter! -- and it was only in the early hours of the night, around six or so, that I felt I could relate properly to the beings inhabiting the domicile.

Bitchy I am not...

Though I was quite a bitch at this one store in SM Batangas... gods, the sales ladies there were all about the prices of their products, even when you're just looking. You touch an item and they recite the price. You comment on an item, they recite the price. You ask for your size and guess what? They recite the price. Who wouldn't be bitchy there?

So, I'm watching this relatively new show at Discovery Travel and Living called The Block. It's an Australian challenge show, in that four couples are given an apartment each to renovate in 74 weeks with 44,000 AUD. It's a brilliant concept but even more brilliant are the couples.

Needless to say, I have a favorite couple and I'll give you three guesses as to who they remind me of.

^__^

Who else but James and Anna? hehehe Well, okay so the guy, Adam, reminds me of James with his go-getter personality. He's serious, really intent on winning, a perfectionist, and it doesn't hurt that he's a hard body and his face is somewhat James-like. Fiona, meanwhile, first off has long straight hair. It's blonde and not as long as Anna's hair but you get the drift. She complements Adam's more aggressive personality traits in that she's a lot more easy-going than him, more approachable, but a serious contender as well.

Then there's Phil and Amity. It was just this episode that Amity actually reminded me strongly of Faye. Physically, uhm... slightly wavy hair even if it's blonde? Okay, so that's a bit of a reach but personality-wise, she's bossy. Like Faye. And she can order that big lug of a husband of hers with ease, even scolding him for touching the couches with dirty hands. And Phil is Russell-like in that he's a goof. Adorable and loveable, but a goof nonetheless. The scene when they're putting up the blinds was hilarious.

Paul and Kylie... hmm... David and Tin...? Have to be honest but I wasn't exactly paying attention to them since I was having too much of a laugh with Phil and Amity's antics ^__^;; But hey, I'll give it a go... Paul seems intent on having a harmonious relationship with his neighbours, but that doesn't mean he's a push-over. No siree, he's not, but if the point under discussion is deemed over, then it's over although he'll make sure that the other party knows that there're no hard feelings over it. Kylie, well, she's also easy-going and they seem to play with each other's strengths.

The other couple is Gavin and Warren... can't say much about them in relation to my exposition, but they do have really cool ideas for the apartment they're renovating in the show. I especially like the electronic roll-down room divider that they put in in place of the wall they knocked down. The big mirrors were a nice touch too, I think, since it kinda centers the rooms, and properly placed mirrors can enlarge the space.


Another topic that I would like to address is... how cool is this?! We've got an almost totally new computer -- bar the CD-rom and one hard drive -- and the keyboard is way cool! I can type with this all day... after I get used to it, of course, since I'm not that used yet to the sloping angle and it kinda siezes up my fingers sometimes.

WAAHHHH!!!

*ahem*

Illusion update: I finished an interlude chapter that I was hoping to be able to post at the ML with my January challenge submission, but then something came up -- bloody id wigged out on me. Gah... now I have a new interlude chapter to write! Good thing though is that I have a more solid thread to work with for Chapter 16 ^__^

I had a strange dream. feifu's Tita Betty was there and in my dream, her assistant was Jaques Torres, the host of Passion for Dessert over at Lifestyle channel, and oh my gods, they were walking along the vegetable produce section of a local wet market ^__^;; erh...

But of course, it included the whole cast of characters, feifu, Saint and Seika, and me of course, with several supporting casts from real life, among them my friend from highschool who I have no idea what happened to him after graduation, Victorino, a.k.a. Ian.

Anyway, there was a sequence that actually involved, I think, a YFC activity... which is strange since I'm not YFC, never been to a YFC activity so I have no idea how I could be sure it was so. There were cute guys though.

hehehe My sister-in-law and her youngest son came to visit last Sunday. It was fun, as we hadn't seen them in some time. The kid's 3 now and man, is he a mischievous imp. Noisy too, and rambunctious.

What else...

Hmm...

See yah.

Okay... I am still so freaked out...!

I went to sleep around 20 or so minutes ago, before 2PM (when I woke up) at any rate, after playing some Text Twist on the computer. As part of my nightly routine, I turn on the radio (hehehe rock station!), turn off lights, snuggle into my blanketsn on my side, close my eyes and go to sleep. I was actually thinking of the Illusion monthly challenges, about what and how I wanna write my January fic finally, with snippets of possible scenes for the other months.

I was drifting off when I had some annoying thoughts, so I hit my forehead twice with my hand -- just a light hard tap to get them out of my head.

So off I went back to drifting off to the sounds of the radio when I can and do swear to you I felt fingernails on my hands. And I can tell you who it was that was bothering my sleep -- sorry Feifu but it was you ^__^;; Gods I was so freaked out internally thinking something must have happened to you and Seika and Saint, coz I could hear their voices in the backgroud even though it was just Feifu who was actually bugging me and calling me to wake up.

I kept my eyes closed but I batted my hand and hit something attached to a clothesline and it shot straight at those three, hitting someone, so this someone natters on about me hitting them etc.

I felt I was back in my actual bed so I just kept my eyes closed and tried to go back to sleep -- try being the operative word here coz I actually felt the bed dip and someone get in bed behind me. I was surprised and even more so when he spooned with me in bed...! I honestly can still feel a weight on my back as I type this and it's raising goosebumps all over my arms!

But something went wrong coz I started struggling and screaming. I fought off the guy and went down to the kitchen area and I somehow ended up among a group of children playing on the floor. Two sisters were playing but the older one started crying and throwing a tantrum while the younger one just stared at her. Someone behind me told one kid on the phone to rewind the tape so they could watch the movie again; it was one of those Disney princesses movie, either Cinderella or Snow White.

Then I was running again, this time up a beautiful wrought iron staircase, the winding type but it's wide and not cramped. The wall was a bright cream and on a niche was a red statue of St. Joseph. It fell off its altar and explodes into hundreds of small bright pieces.

It was actually quite pretty, kinda John Woo cinematography ^__^;;

Somehow or the other, I end up outside my room and the guy is inside. I'm trying to get into my room so I could kick his ass out of my room and he's pushing the door closed on me. Gah, bloody bastard... and he's covered in a brown and red thick blanket so I can't see his face.

I realized then that I had to wake up, otherwise, who knows what'll happen in this dream world where I was already molested in my own bed, so I went to the ledge and backed off it until I fell.

I fell, and I felt the wind rushing around me. I can't adequately explain it right now, only that the sensation I felt was like my consciousness was falling back to my stationary body in my real bed. I ain't kidding, it was like that! And when my consciousness merged with my body, I didn't immediately open my eyes, but I knew I was back and that I was going to wake up, I had to wake up.

I opened my eyes and I flexed my hand, just to see if I was really back ^__^;; I got up, turned the lights on and went downstairs to type this up. It doesn't sound as freaky and creepy as it was when I was inside the dream but it was freaky, honest.


Fifteen or twenty minutes of sleep and this is the freaky dream that I had. Freaky. And I didn't move an inch! Gah, I honestly thought someone was in bed with me! But I know that's impossible unless the characters that I've been writing suddenly came to life!

Okay... getting sleepy... it's 3AM now. I'll post this then go back to sleep. Hmm... lights on or lights off? Gah, electric bill -- lights off.