Illusion chronicles: my notes and thoughts during the actual editing of Illusion.


24 September 2003
very early morning

This is getting to be a doozy. I used the organizer incident but with a bit of a twist. If in the real life occurence, the victim didn't recall anything of what happened, in this case, Russell gets a monster headache.

I'm not too sure with its writing though, so I may go back to it later.

It's all Russ and Faye right now!

Though I sorta retained the scene when Anna kinda looked right through James. And this time around, he kinda admitted to something...

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afternoon

I feel like I'm hurrying the scenes along, mainly because I want to reach somewhere fast. But the essential scenes will still be there, like that one with Faye and Russ and they get locked in a room by his the latter's own mother and the subsequent injury. I think.

So I'm thinking of modifying the organizer incident a bit.

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evening

Wai! I'm done with Chapter 4: Disclosure! Finally! Only this chapter used to be chapter 3 so... argh... re-working the chapter numbers.

I'm quite happy with it.

So onto the new chapter 5! hehehe more James moments...? WAI!!

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Argh... apology scene... I had it all worked out before, but in retrospect, it sounds (reads) so... amateurish. Not real. I have to make it real.

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Argh! I know there are meanings attached to numerous flowers, and the colors of flowers. Which flower and which color means "asking for forgiveness" or "sorry?" Is it yellow roses? Or any yellow flowers?

HELP!!

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Oh my... I have no idea what the hell I'm writing anymore! I have an idea of what I wanted to happen, but I'm having trouble making it happen!

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Have to make it happen...! Have to make it happen...! Have to make it happen...! Have to make it happen...! Have to make it happen...! Have to make it happen...! Have to make it happen...! Have to make it happen...! Have to make it happen...! Have to make it happen...! Have to make it happen...! Have to make it happen...! Have to make it happen...! Have to make it happen...! Have to make it happen...! Have to make it happen...! Have to make it happen...! Have to make it happen...! Have to make it happen...! Have to make it happen...! Have to make it happen...!

I like the idea of what I want to happen but how to get there...?!

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I'm taking a break...

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I re-did the organizer incident, by the way, but I don't know if it's up to standard yet. I have to let it sit for a few more hours before I go back to it and see how it really is.

*sigh*

The trials and tribulations of being me...

The current Illusion looks like a new interpretation of my original story idea. *sigh* James has got to get his act together so I could write it better. The guy is still hedging...!

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