so... i just took a quiz -- for the hell of it -- what aura something like that from quizilla. it came out 'red' at first, but i was like, oh no, I am not a frigging red. so i re-took the test and the results this time was a lot better -- crystal: can take on the aura of the person close to you. or something like that. i have no idea how to put that result up here so i'm just repeating what i remembered about it.

just had a thought. what the hell do i want to be?

but before that... i know i've been like all moody and fascinated with killing myself, on and off for the past few days. people know that. why is that though? well, i can offer no other excuse than that if other people suffer these attacks, as it were, at one point in their lives, i suffer them several times a month. i'd rather not hazard a guess as to how many times it is as it would probably depress me or elate me that i can be so bloody weird, but several times sounds just about right.

no people, i am not trying to feel special or anything, just laying it out as i see them. after all, almost everyone can be classified as clinically depressed, right?