ei, Sandy, sorry about that, if you've read the entry regarding having kids *sheepish grin* I know you're totally gaga over the idea... hehehe and I was reconsidering about the UPS idea of babysitting ^__^;;

Anyway...

So... I'm kinda feeling like I just had or am about to have a heart attack. Why is it that every time it's just the two of us -- my brother and I -- I feel like treading on land mines? It's like one wrong word and he'll blow his top and that'll be the end of the real lofe existence of yours truly?

Damn, maintaining a lot of facades IS really tiring, not to mention stressful. Problem is, once you take off the first mask, when'll it end? It's like I have a number of masks on for every single person that I know and interact with. Heck, even my online persona is a lot more outgoing than my offline persona, and that begs the question, which is me?

There are times when I feel like my online persona is more like the real me, but then there are times when I feel like the offline persona is more like me. Heck, I'm going in circles. To hell with it.

Identity crisis. Hell, who is Ana?

Kinda reminds me of that Jackie Chan movie, Who Am I? I liked that movie. I think I watched that late at night, or maybe that was Accidental Spy.

Oh crud... I just want to retreat into the room, draw the covers over me, and drown out the sounds of the outside world through my trusty discman -- erhm, the CD there right now is a collection of Mandy Moore songs, how pop can you get? -- though the radio could work, but as it's the weekend, let me tell you that the music will royally suck.

I'm still going to go online tonight, I think.

Damn, Choco's missing. She was right beside me earlier on, then when I looked to check on her, she was gone. I've looked through the whole roster of her fave places inside the house but I still haven't found her. I semi-checked outside as well, but the only cats I saw were the other strays. Heck, I've named them -- Kuro, Shiro, Han. Guess why. Kuro's actually really pretty, a solid color all around, and he has green eyes. Choco's are blue, I think, but then she's younger; it could still change, ne?

Just visited the RO2 website. Real nice, but it would have been better if my computer didn't like, do what it is doing right now.

How in the name of all that holy do you get rid, totally, of HTML Redlof A virus? It's driving me mad, I can't make my website because of that little bugger.

So, back on track... where was I? Oh yeah, Marco actually crossed my thoughts. He was supposed to lend me his copy of CCCom #10 -- he was supposed to drive over and give it to me earlier but he didn't. So when my sister went into the city, I asked her to get me a copy of it. Now I have my own. And then the bugger had to call the other house asking when and what he was supposed to drop off at my house. Cute.

Now I wish he did, if only because I need him to ink a sketch that I have. Damn. Wonder if the image'll look alright, it being done in pencil and the other one actually done in ink is not just to my type...

Eep, have to visit Gothic Rain's site, don't know if it's still up though. I hope it is though, coz damn, but that guy can draw! It's actually a site for his comic and it's really good. Wonder how Tommy's doing; hope he ain't dead yet. As well as David.

*sigh* I forgot to ask Marco's URL. Double damn.

What else is there?

I'm starting to calm down, if only because my sister is here and can play equalizer to me.

I hate it. I hate this. I hate me.

Damn, damn, damn.

My head's killing me, headache on the horizon! Argh, migraine variety, I hope, and not the other killer kind. I hate those; they strike when you least expect it.

To talk or not to talk. I opt for silence.

hehehe just read a semi-funny email... it was at my HS ML, and this guy, sent an email in the pure native language. hehehe I still won't say/write it.

Anyway, it was kinda funny coz I was trying to follow the words but I kept cracking up. Not because he wasn't any good, but the idea of it was funny, to me at least, coz the lingua franca at that ML was English with just a bit of native thrown in. Oh well, he's at Law School so I suppose he should be able to be quite good in the native language as well.

Argh.