And what the hell do you expect me to do?! Lie about in bed all day, going the expected sick routine so you can bloody well complain about it to everyone, how expensive it is to take care of a sick sibling?! And how tiring it can be?!

Bloody hell! I curse you to Hell and back to the River Styx!!

And you had the bloody gall to compare me to that bitch?! Fuck you!

I'm doing what I'm doing, mainly sitting in front of the computer and editing Illusion, because I can't bloody well not do it! I have to do this if I want to finish this. Why the hell am I justifying my actions?!

This just makes me sooo mad. Wherever I turn, I'll be sure to encounter a censure of whatever it is I'm doing. I lie about all day, and I'm lazy and a good-for-nothing. I watch television, and I'm like my sister. I do something with the computer and I don't take care of myself. Where in the name of bloody heaven am I to place myself?!

Then there's this... ARGH! I'm supposed to be calling her Auntie (blegh!) and she'd emailed me asking yet again why I didn't go to Nursing school at her behest. So I wrote back, I've forgotten what exactly I wrote but it went along the lines of "I don't want to do anything I don't want to do" and she replies with something like "Young ones can get too idealistic but as you grow older you have to be realistic."

What the fuck do you bloody think you're doing?! I don't bloody care if you're 66 years old, and I'm supposed to be respectful of my elders. If it's one thing I've learned over the years, it's bloody unhealthy to hold resentments inside. So I'm doing this.

Venting is healthy.

Wouldn't it be funnily ironic if I go to sleep and never wake up, ever again? Hmm... that's an idea I have to explore, fully this time.

Argh, can't forget the sexfest.

Ah hell... whatever comes first, and that wasn't any pun.





Hate as never before witnessed
Anger overflowing the dream
Rage simmering below the surface
Resentment a thin film above
Yearning to flee

Pensive thoughts try to calm
Only nothing can be in between
Truth is a danger to all
Terrible is the price to pay
Evangelize in the name of ME
Repent to die



Note: Ooops, sorry dude but I was trying to get calm. In a sense it worked too. ^__^;

Only to J.K. does the genius belong
I along with many worship and borrow
But ne'er to do vicious harm
Just pure fan homage