Just watched Hyde's concert on BS2. Didn't understand a word he was saying -- I think he was eating his words or something -- but MAN! the music rocked! Guitars! Drums! *sigh* music for my soul. His music as a solo artist is grittier than when he's with L'arc en Ciel. More edgy. More rock. More yummilicious.

Hmm... more evil? hehehe symbols, just symbols, nothing more, nothing less. Loved the cross up over them on the stage, and then when it descended... nice... Lights were wonderfully controlled chaos.

He only had two other musicians with him on stage: bass guitars and drums. Three guys, and a packed stadium, up to the rafters. Packed.

What was it? 666 Hyde 2004 First Tour Concert or something like that.

And now The Beat File presents Avril Lavigne and Britney Spears.

What a way to come down from such a high.

And when Hyde was talking -- an interview interspersed with the concert -- and even before the first song, he was smoking a cigarette. Made me think of my erstwhile nicotine habit. Made me wonder if I could resurrect that habit. The last time I smoked a cigarette was in college, and I bummed one from a blockmate, delicious minty cigarette, and I was feeling agitated that time. That one cigarette calmed me down. I swear.

So makes me wonder if I can be calmed down now if I start smoking again.

Not that I was a prolific smoker way back when, but I did smoke occasionally. Heck, with my brother a smoker and my sister a poser smoker, it'd be one smoking family, eh? hehehe

I have this particular brand though in mind. I don't care for the usual cigarette brands; I want that minty one that I smoked last in college. Then there are the flavored cigarettes my niece introduced me to before. Cinnamon, I think, was the one that I got. It was okay, I guess, but it was only one puff. Can't actually tell with just one puff. Have to finish one stick. At least.

Hmm...

There's even an open pack right out here. Matches on the next surface, and a lighter on the table.

I wonder... hmm... gotta ask who owns that pack first.


Do you know what you're doing?

*lights up* Yeah.

Okay, as long as you're aware...

Thank you. *sardonic eye roll*


Geez, I have a doctor's appointment on Friday. What to wear? I want the combat boots. Black re-made skirt? Have to find a cheap olive green shirt. Damn, I don't own a green shirt, except for that hand-painted shirt that I can't actually re-make because it's an expensive piece of clothing.

Where the hell did I get that anyway? I for sure didn't buy that... Oh yeah, my other brother gave that to me. Man's shirt for a girl. Go figure.

All black is sounding real good right about now. But which black shirt can I cut up? Everytime I actually have to dress up, I feel like I have to count pennies or something. It's like, argh... I can't describe it. Just that I'm not comfortable in my skin, in my clothes anymore.

Who the fucking hell am I?


Britney on the telly.


"Her ex, Colin Bautista, was the poster boy for the Perfect Man for All Ages. He was one of the more handsome men she had ever seen, with the soft, silky, beautifully black hair, wickedly bright black eyes, impeccably sharp nose, and yummiliciously sweet lips. Not to mention Colin was definitely a gentleman of the old tradition… most of the time, when he wasn't being mischievous. But even that, he managed to make into an adorably cute undertaking."

--> so whatcha think, Feifu, of Colin's description? Excerpt from my new orginal story.

I'm still working on the first chapter, and I need a title. Something highschoolishly adult, perhaps? Hmm... Die, Voldemort, Die maybe? hehehe disregard that...


hehehe

advert for CSI: Miami on AXN. Had to stop what I was doing to watch it. Doesn't matter how often I've seen that advert.

Oh yeah, I saw a preview for AXN's new programming, and I literally screamed with delight when I saw Horatio. ^___________________^ CSI: Miami second season is near!! My mantra would be: "Ignore SWMNBN." And "Don't despair coz H/C moments will come and will not be stopped by TPTB, no matter how delusional they may be." Or something along that line.

And I read in the ML that the actress playing SWMNBN said on a talk show (can't verify it so it could just be rumor or hearsay) that her character was a regular in the series because fans liked her chemistry with H.

Most were like, "what fans?" and "what chemistry?"

I tend to agree. I've seen her intro to the series before -- since I am saturating myself in reruns this time around -- and all I could see was a pretty cop who's brother-in-law in CSI was concerned about her. Seeing as her son is his last blood relative in the whole wide world...

"Pretty set decor" I think was someone else's description of her.

hehehe

H/C shippers 'til the end!


Good distraction for me these days: David Caruso or Horatio Caine. Whichever is there.