Thursday, October 30, 2003

Man, I'm becoming dream-girl over here. So... last night's dream -- or it could be early this morning, whichever.

I suppose it started with me being in my room with someone I know, but it was a girl and I think we were doing either embroidery or crochet or knitting, and talking. Then here come these vines just growing from under my bed and climbing all over the place!

I got the feeling that I'd faced/seen them before and I was afraid. But we both got to work and threw the clingy vines off the bed and onto the walls. Then this girl goes to the two main vines and I back away because I just knew they'd be snakes.

And they were.

Eurgh!

All the vines started wriggling around and became snakes. We backed out of the room, and then she and my brother did some sort of radio announcement thingamajig (which I suppose would mean that my subconscious has integrated the radio into my dream as my radio is on) about a school and what-not.

Then my brother collected all of the snakes, all 83 of them. This is one thing that I am sure of, that there were 83 snakes all in all; don't know why. So he collects them with this nifty gadget mainly used for collecting snakes that I saw in Discovery Channel, and puts them all in a hamper of all things. And it was my hamper!

We leave the house and then we're in this grocery store. I separate from them and wander into the snack section. I get my foodstuff because we were going to an arena or something to watch a show. What kind of show, I don't know, though I knew we would need snacks and it would be entertaining.

So I go over to my companions and they were all looking askance at me and my grocery basket. I had bottled water, a bag of chips, a bag of candies, and Pringles. Funny thing was the Pringles I remembered being the red one but not the plain/original flavor, something pizza or something.

My brother and I went over to the other aisles and picked up his foodstuff, as he had to get rid of the snakes first, right? And I remember this orange juice container being in a shape of the Eiffel Tower, just sitting there on the shelf and we got it because it looked different from the rest of the juice selection.

We went to the cashier -- actually, I went to the cashier -- and you'd never guess who was minding it. Martha Stewart! Of all people, it was Martha Stewart! And she was kinda bossy with her assistants in the store, throwing commands left and right, but she smiled at the customers.

Weird eh?

*~*

Dang, I knew I was upset about something, and I even visualized what and how I was going to write it down. But it's gone now. All I know is that it went something along this format.

*me angry and ranting*

Right, need to calm down.

Daniel Radcliffe.

*immediate smile*

Immediate calm.

Right.


Argh, and here I thought I was over this...! Then I had to go to the ultimate Daniel Radcliffe fan site and I saw the new picture he was sending out to his fans who write him...! *sigh* gorgeous.

Now I'm off to write... ta-ta!


Wednesday, October 29, 2003

I had a disturbing dream. Well, it wasn't that disturbing I suppose... but it kinda jerked me awake, like immediately. It was a different kind of adrenaline rush from before...

Argh. How can I say this...?

Hmm... well, the dream involved James (from Illusion and Countdown, which technically is just one character) and sex. hehehe sex and James, James and sex

Oh my freaking god.

I scare me sometimes. Scratch that: a lot of times.


I'm only remembering this now but my sister mentioned once something about me having innate 'magic' in me because of my Mum. Local witchcraft lore talking here. Coz she said Mum had an ability. So I got to wondering who among us got the ability, genes being passed on and stuff.

She said she had some, but that I maybe could have more. I'm like, huh? I can't remember any instance in my boring life that I did anything of the sort.

So she said just be aware of what's happening to me and around me when I feel extreme emotions. And here I kinda smirked because if I let myself be really, REALLY angry and I visualize what I want to happen to the people who ticked me off... erh... it can get nasty. I have a wild imagination regarding torture, blood, and mayhem.

But hey, if it works...!

Wonder now if I feel the opposite of anger, what'd happen?


Argh.

hehehe Britney vs Christina Weekend at MTV. Nah, it wasn't the local MTV relay, I think I have MTV Europe or something. But anyway, I watched the show the whole weekend.

Oh dear lord. Britney Spears and Christina Aguilera in one weekend. What was I thinking?!

And now I have too much of 'Me Against the Music' in my head!


Monday, October 27, 2003

I had a weird dream, very realistic it was, and that was somewhat frightening.

I suppose it started when I got the impression that I was 'fighting' for position in a car or some sort of vehicle. I don't know if I got my preferred seat or not because that was when my cell phone rang. It was with a distinct feeling of dread that I answered it; the caller ID display was for TT. That meant I knew the person, right? Since his/her number was in my phone memory, but I have no recollection of someone having that alias in my phone memory.

When I answered the phone, I could hear one of my nephews in the background screaming and shouting something fierce. It was then that I knew that my nephew had been kidnapped and that they were calling me for the terms of his release.

On the flip side of it all, and I'm just realizing it now, why the hell did they call me?! I have no money and I'm not the kid's parent! I'm just the aunt, so why me?

For some reason my setting in the dream was inside a cathedral or a very large church, filling up with people for service. I strode over to the courtyard, and I knew people were looking at me but what the hell, who cares about them?

I can't recollect now what we talked about, only that the person on the other side had a girly voice and was trying to make it into that annoying five-year-old cutey girly voice when it was so painfully obvious she wasn't a five-year-old. Something like Umbridge would sound, I'm thinking right now.

We talked and talked until it rained on the outside and I was getting soaked and the phone reception was getting bad. But if it was one thing that I learned watching police negotiators at work with hostage-takers and what-not, it was to get the verification that the hostage/s were alright, for the time being at least, and that meant getting to hear their voice or something like that.

Now I had no idea where they were holding my nephew so I was also hoping that he'd be able to give me some clues as to where he was.

I was 'negotiating' with the girly voice and I know she was going to let me talk to my nephew but the service got cut, something about 'transmission cannot be continued' shit or something. You can imagine my frustration and anger as I entered the church to go back to my companions and family who were awaiting word.

The church service was on its way as I walked up the aisle to where they were and I got the distinct feeling that everyone, even the priest stopped when I shouted "Goddamnit!" as I walked.

And that was when I woke up. I was still feeling the adrenaline rush of it when I woke up and I had to take a moment to orient myself as to where and when I am.

I really wish I could remember how and what I talked about when I was in negotiator mode. The one thing that I know I hoped I had done (but couldn't because the phone call and the topic was so unexpected) was to have the phone call traced. I know there's some software out there that can do that.


Friday, October 24, 2003

So let's put all the quizzes in one post, makes for an interesting post, won't it?

Right, so apologies to Feifu if I'm being too much of a copycat ^__^;; Hey, you have quizzes!


You represent... naivete.
You represent... naivete.
So innocent and trusting... you can be very shy at
times, but it's only because you're not sure
how to act. You give off that "I need to
be protected vibe." Remember that not all
people are good. Being too trusting will get
you easily hurt.


What feeling do you represent?
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I protest!



Earth
Your element is Earth. I hate to say it but you are
down to earth. Stubborn and loyal. You tend to
want to nurture others and you are the one
person friends always come to for awnsers.
Without people like you others would be flying
over the edge because, whether you know it or
not you keep a steady beat to your life and
will end up where you want to in the end. There
is a sureness about you that is hard to match
that draws people to you. No matter what
happens the Earth keeps turning.


What's your element
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Alrighty! This one I LIKE!!



Night Walker
Night Walker, the second class of vampire. You are
depressive and introverted, making it hard to
reach you. Your servants are very few, because
you do not like to take prisoners. Your powers
are comprised of shadow magic. You are lonely
deep down inside, but won't let others see your
true self. You should try to open up more
often.


What class of vampire are you? (some new images)
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hehehe do not take prisoners! Show them no mercy for they shall show you none. NIght Walker... it does count that I don't sleep much right? Well, there are reasons for that, let's just not get into them right now.



Season = Winter
You're Most Like The Season Winter ...

You're often depicted as the cold, distant season.
But you're incredibly intelligent, mature and
Independant. You have an air of power around
you - and that can sometimes scare people off.
You're complex, and get hurt easily - so you
rarely let people in if you can help it. You
can be somewhat of a loner, but just as easily
you could be the leader of many. You Tend to be
negative, and hard to relate to, but you give
off a relaxed image despite being insecure -
and secretly many people long to be like you,
not knowing how deep the Winter season really
is.

Well done... You're the most inspirational of
seasons :)


?? Which Season Are You ??
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Inspirational... me? erh...



Hao
Which Shaman King Guy Is Perfect for you

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hehehe couldn't resist the bad guy... he is kinda hot though, so it's not so bad.



Morpheus
Morpheus


?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Oohh... we got the same result...! Erh, good thing or bad thing, Feifu?



Senko
Senko - "Wizard Child; Hermit Child"
Sponsored by www.life-blood.cjb.net


What would your Japanese name be? (female)
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Oh my... hermit child, I like...!



I like the seasons result best. It's more..., just more. But I'm not too sure about the inspirational part though.

Oh gods, I just remembered... have to look for job...! Now! Help! Need to get out of here, otherwise I'll be left with... eurgh!

Monday, October 20, 2003

*sigh*

I noticed my nails again. Gah... I really have to remember to ignore it from now on. It'll be with me for a long time, now won't it?

I went to my niece's birthday party just next door. Full of kids, balloons, cake but I didn't get to taste it darn it, spaghetti and other usual party food. hehehe When I came back to the house, the TV was on WOWOW and the movie was Cross Roads.

Yup, I managed to watch at least towards the ending of Britney Spears' movie.

Zoiks, and I borrowed a friend's Britney CDs before... hehehe ^__^;;


Oh yeah, I've been hogging MTV for any glance of Blue's new music video called Guilty. I've only been able to see the last minute or two of it and never the beginning.

But I lucked out!

HAH! I watched the whole video!

Gah, but Duncan still looks HOT!! Sizzling hot! I like the new hair!

And surprisingly enough, Anthony actually looks... nice.

Lee's as cute as usual.

Simon's... Simon. Good to see he gave up on the Afro thing for his hair and just braided his hair. He really does have a nicely shaped head.

Wai! Duncan!


Saturday, October 18, 2003

Oh goddarn it...!

I just noticed my nails, more specifically my left middle fingernail. I hate how it looks right now. It's all... wrong. And this just happened because I took off the pink clouds nail polish I put on earlier in the week, then I noticed it.

That white part of the nail that's like the division of sorts between the "free nail" and the one stuck to your flesh? Well, that's what's wrong. A month or several weeks ago -- I forget which -- there was this little piece of stubborn dirt that wouldn't come out so I poked at it until I somehow forced the flesh off.

But it didn't hurt at all.

And now my nails are not even, and I hate that!

Gah... nail doctor anyone? Help? Fix this problem? Please?

Argh.

It's annoying to look at, to say the least.

If I had left that piece of dirt inside, it would have probably sparked off a more serious thing, right?

Tell me I'm right.

And now I'm thinking of covering it up again with the pink clouds nail polish, erh, nail lacquer I mean. That's what it says on the bottle anyway.

Really cute, pink with some gold and all sparkly looking like clouds... I guess that't why it's called pink clouds, ne?


oh my... I'm currently SMSing my other brother while typing this and it's hell on the fingers of both hands. Anyway...

Oohh... Metallica!!

Erhm, MTV Unpaused currently playing. Gah, who do I vote for in the MTV European Music Awards?!

Nasty problem.

But then again, here's another problem: It has been suggested that I study Arabic to get a job abroad. So now I'm surfing the Net for schools here to see if there are any Arabic Language Learning Centers. Needless to say, I have yet to find something. I did find some correspondence courses but it's still debatable if it'll work for me.

Hey, at least I know that the Arabic word for fish is samakah and that date (the fruit) is tamarah. I'm not too sure of the spelling as I'm writing them from memory.

*sigh*

I got a track suit jacket from the YOUNG BOYS DEPARTMENT and it fits!

Okay, I'll get over that right now.

Done.


Life news: nothing so earth-shattering. I'm writing again. hehehe funny James of Illusion. Can't you just bloody say SORRY?!

Right, moving on... James of Countdown is doing a better job of being than his counterpart in Illusion.

Tyrel's sooo gonna be in the hot spot when I get to Embitterment again.

Erh, and Annie (Almost) left Lexie.

*sigh*


My brother met with the Miss Earth (or something like that Internation Pageant) contestants earlier today.

Thursday, October 16, 2003

hehehe got this from Gem's journal:

elf
You are Form 6, Elfin: The Wyld.

"And The Elfin saw the evil and
misjudgement in the world and shot her arrow at
the sky. Bolts of lightning struck the earth
and gave the world balance and
growth."


Some examples of the Elfin Form are Demeter (Greek)
and Khepry (Egyptian).
The Elfin is associated with the concept of growth
and balance, the number 6, and the element of
water.
Her sign is the half moon.

As a member of Form 6, you are a very balanced
individual. You can easily adapt to most
situations and you may be a good social
chameleon. You aren't afraid of changes in
your life, but sometimes you evolve too
rapidly, leaving others to think that you are
leaving them behind. Elfin are the best
friends to have because they are open minded.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
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^___^

So... Feifu's looking for an update... by the way, nice earthquake some days ago, ne? I was watching TV both times. There was an earlier quake some days before then the two quakes. It was really...

Anyway.

Robinson's opened here! Actually in another city (Lipa) in the province but it's like an hour's bus ride away anyway so it's nearby. It's in the city where I went to high school.

Robinson's = fountain, so I watched the fountain. It was just a two-storey structure so the fountain wasn't that high. Shops galore! I could get used to malling.

I found the jacket I've been looking for for a while now. And you'll never guess where I found it. Gods, it was soo strange but okay I guess. I saw the jacket at Giordano first and it cost 1299 PhP. That was for the females, and the one for the males cost 1499 PhP. At least I think that was the difference.

I was like, I am not blowing my whole lot of money for that.

The next jacket I found was at this 50% store where everything was marked down by 50%. There was a jacket all right, and the price was okay 295 PhP or thereabouts but it didn't fit me well. It was too small for me.

Back to square one.

So off to the Department Store. I went through the clothes racks for women and teen girls. One of the sales ladies said to check the mens wear, so off to there.

Guess where I found my dream jacket.

At the young boys department.

Not teen boys. Young boys.

And the jacket fit! It was in XL but hey, it was young boys before teenager age.

It fit! And it cost 199.75 PhP!

Cool!

Tuesday, October 14, 2003

Ororo... what in the name...? It's a new format again, for the editing your blog page.

But anyway.

A.C.I.D.E.R.'s up, version 5.

Story updates:

Illusion: still in Chapter 5: Apologizing. I'm still working out a way for James and Anna to get to talking properly. So they're in a cafe then... what?! James set up the meet so I suppose he should do the talking.

Countdown: Chapter 4 is done! But I haven't uploaded it yet. Currently working in Chapter 5 but I'm planning in putting it on hold so I can work on the others. If the others don't work, then I'm going back to this one.

Children of the Dark: I'm still not satisfied with Chapters 1 and 2, so I'm thinking of going it over again and possibly make it into one chapter only.

My leg's going numb...

Embitterment: Haven't touched this one in a while. I'm still in Chapter 4 and in the resolution of the conflict, hopefully. If Tyrel's in a bad mood, I'm thinking this is going to add to the conflict. Darn.

Almost: Finally finished chapter 3 but I haven't uploaded yet. I'm thinking it's more mature this time around. Work on Chapter 4 is progressing.

A New Life for the Wolf: Chapter 7, have to end the story line by the tenth chapter. Sorry Saitou but I just realized that. Don't go threatening me with that Gatotsu nonsense right now...

Gundam Wing fanfics: hehehe ^__^ wrote a naughty one with Trowa. Still debating if I'm going to upload it.

Inuyasha fanfics: Erh... A Place on Earth stays on as a one-shot.

So far, that's all folks!